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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty

♔empty♔

im still trying to think of what to do to fill up this space

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty

Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ( 9:24 PM )

love-hate relationship with school seriously

haha i must re-cultivate my ability to generate enthusiasm n optimism HAHAHA coz i know what will happen once i start leaning towards the DARK SIDE... so joyce, please b positive! its all gonna b easy peasy, piece of cake! not to worry! things always turn out right in the end =D

n alll this will b WORTH IT! better anatomy than econs rite! yes.. anatomy is my friend.

we have dissection prac this thurs n we hav to read up for it on our own again! haha they dont teach us for dissection.. okie n frankly, the theory part on that subject has hardly been covered tooo.. so yea.. Millers is making my head hurt now HAHAHA

last sem was muscle n bone, this sem its blood vessels! holy schmoly lar! so small! never thought id say this but im beginning to appreciate muscle n bone now.. LOL!

vet students arent geniuses!!!!!!!!!! looking fwd to friday!! dinner at pancakes on the rocks! n hopefully laser tag!

http://www.pancakesontherocks.com.au/home

go seee!

Sunday, July 26, 2009 ( 9:27 PM )

feeling waayy better today! getting ready for the start of 2nd semester.. its SO fast seriously..

not too bad though! our next hols will b in september for 1 wk.. n then Dec will b summer holidays for 3 mths!! XD

this sem i'll try my best to stay awake more in lectures! hahaha but i may pon PP lects! n i'll try to explore more places when i can, have more fun n hang out w ppl.. study when i have to, relax during the wkends! n NOT stress myself out too much! sounds lyk a goood plan!

my family is celebrating my bro's bday today.. they're having tons of fun singing karaoke! i cant imagine LOL we nv tried that b4! n my alfred cooked pasta HAHAHA when i go back mus ask him cook for me!!

i LOVE this pic of my bro!

Saturday, July 25, 2009 ( 1:32 PM )

what a way to fly off

got such a shock! when i received abby's sms in the midst of watching bones with the family..gosh! i only realised i was flying off 3 hours b4 my flight! n u noe u hav to check in lyk 2 hrs b4..

thank goodness i started packing n was more or less done alrdy so last min chuck all my other stuff in, still managed to reach the airport on time..flustered

was supposed to have dinner w family + some close friends tonight.. but yes, im in sydney alrdy.. so hav to cancel =( i was rly looking fwd to that dinner la! haha but can only blame myself for being such a blurpok la..

at least i had lotsa fun playing badminton w my sisters, friends n my mum =D lol though i play like a noob, i still think its funnn!!! that shall b in my dec plans =D

had icecream chef n cheesecake frm cheesecake cafe too! yummy yummy yummy! ok i cant believe i havent tried their cheeseackes till ytd considering ive been living around there for the last few yrs! im def gg back there for more in future too!

alrite, so now im back in sydney, still feeling flustered from such an abrupt departure.. abit stoned n at a loss of what to do-i need to organise myself now.. hahaha n a lil upset coz i didnt get to say a proper goodbye to my friends n family! didnt have the mental preparation to leave yet! AND my dinnerrrrrr................ rahh..

aching legs now

Friday, July 24, 2009 ( 2:42 AM )

its alrdy friidayyy! flying back to sydney sooon! i guess its about time as well.. other than meeting up w my dear friends, pigging out lyk nobody's business, i've been shopping lyk crazyy, boosting singapores economy no doubt, and yea, if i have nothing to do, i decide to take a walk around to "window shop" n somehow end up buying more stuff!! what an insidious cycle i tell u!! nvm! i will earn my keep the next hols XD

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 ( 1:15 AM )

hehe went on a shopping spree today, met up w friends, had wonderful coffee..totally made my day.. feeling v happyyy!

i think this world needs a little more loving

we should all make random acts of kindness to random people whenever we can =D

it just warms the heart, when u do something nice and ppl appreciate it, they're happy, u're happy! its like a happiness tree..it branches and reaches out, getting passed on cumulatively XD

i reckon if everyone did something nice for ppl around them everyday, the world would b a much happier and loving place

it doesn't have to be anything elaborate, write a note to a friend to say they've been missed, smile more, buy someone a coffee, say your thank yous, give up ur seat on the bus/train, anything!

n hence, that is why i love snail mail, i love it when friends call-just to talk, i love giving little gifts every now n then- if i see sth i think someone would like, id buy it for them lols.. coz there rly isn't a need for an occasion for gifts.. don't have to wait for birthdays to give ppl presents.. coz they'd kind of expect it anyway.. haha they'll b happy of course, but if u get a present on ur non-birthday, just out of the blue, won't u be even happier? LOL thats just my opinion though

if we all show our love a bit more everyday, we wouldn't need to wait for V-day/mother's/father's day to celebrate/express our love for our parents/loved ones. it becomes meaningless if gifts are exchanged just because n we won't have to wait for a special day to be especially nice. coz ppl get too caught up in the occasion that sometimes they forget that gifts do NOT equate to love..and do not compensate for a lack of love on the other 364 days of the yr.. its usually the little everyday things in life that really count..

so yes, do sth nice for someone whenever u can n you'll ultimately b happier!

“A random act of kindness is a purportedly selfless act performed by a person or persons wishing to either assist or cheer up an individual or in some cases even an animal. There will generally be no reason other than to make people smile, or be happier. Either spontaneous or planned in advance, random acts of kindness are encouraged by various communities.” - from wiki

if all the rich help all the poor, the world would be a much happier place than before XD

Sunday, July 19, 2009 ( 2:43 AM )

family gathering today n celebrated my bday WAY WAY WAY in advance but yea! it was quite nice coz its been quite some time since i last had a proper bday cake w candles n bday song, blowing out candles thing XD

Friday, July 17, 2009 ( 11:39 PM )

http://www.pininho.com.au/index.cfm/page/products

check this out! so interesting! hahaha im v amused! was from jean but i only got it today when i met up w val XD

i tried it on my pair of flipflops n it turned out beautifully hehehe!

( 1:31 AM )

wasted week 1 being sick

week 2 was spent at mount pleasant

week 3 was supposed to be at mount pleasant too but have been way toooo tired for some unknown reason.. and been coughing away.. LOL everyday id wake up at almost noon!! its like im concussed or sth, totally unable to wake up any earlier than that.. im hoping this does NOT continue when i go back to sydney

wahaha i rly neeed my energy n over-the-top happiness to come back!

met up w a couple of friends over the wk, though everyones busy, its nice that we all make an effort to meet =D

went to bedok reservoir to play the forest adventure thingy last wk i think, w my family n cousins, aunty n uncle.. it turned out to b quite fun! its a treetop obstacle course kinda thing w 4 long long zip lines/flying fox!

wk 3 is coming to an end..its a love-hate thing i concluded.. when im here i'll miss sydney, when im in sydney, i'll miss singapore.. its always like that.. right now, i kinda miss school too! thinking back upon the last sem, it was rly an awesome semester, though i rmb it being quite intimidating at first..but in the end, it all turned out good!

went for trng today which was more of a for-fun thing for me than training and meeting up w more friends in the next few days! XD saturday its family + relatives gathering.. we're gonna have indian food buffet! hehe! from Bombay Cafe at katong area.. e food is seriously good u noe! hehe in short, im looking fwd to the next few days!

wk 4 will b meeting up w friends mostly, buying a few little things i need to bring back w me to sydney, n slowly getting into the mood to go back to sch.. how fast 4 wks fly by.. SNAP! just like that!

joyce joyce joyce, u have to SNAP outta it! hahaha i demand that my never-ending supply of energy n happiness come back into my life now now now!!! wahaha

Sunday, July 5, 2009 ( 1:12 PM )

im almost fully recovered n ready to go out!! XD hehe its the first time in the week i've woken up without a splitting headache! still lotsa phelgm though BUT! its getting better! thats all the matters

waaaa im quite sad coz had to miss 4B outing at east coast ytd =(

hopefully there will b another! wahaha but anyways, BONES has been keeping me entertained XD i love how they're always so smart! n bones n booth n always bickering its so funny n intellectual n retarded at the same time..

now i feel happy =D n have started making plans in my head on how to not waste away my precious holidays

next week, first up will b mount pleasant! yupyup! gg back there for 2 wks to do my attachment! i love gg back coz its FUN! n can visit my friends there and learn new things!

alrighty then! time for lunch! tata!

Saturday, July 4, 2009 ( 1:34 PM )

HEADACHE!!!!

Friday, July 3, 2009 ( 7:59 PM )

irony of all ironies

my parents only say say.. in e end they let me out

BUT stupid me had to get myself quarantined -.-"

went out jogging n got caught in the rain but continued jogging all the same.. n hoho! look what i got myself into..

been sick since tuesday.. headache, fever, almost all the h1n1 symptoms.. e doc wasnt sure if it is h1n1 or just a normal flu coz i got caught in the rain.. but he dispensed tamiflu la..so yes.. i spent the last few days heavily drugged with 7 pills n cough syrup 3 times a day ...

geez.. when i said i didn't wanna come back, i shouldn't have come back.. idk y but i think sydney's my happy place! im always happy all day long when im there, i wake up early n i feel happy n fulfilled.. im quarantined now so im bored but even if im not quarantined, i dun feel as happy! theres nothing much to do here..

hais. y is everyone always busy? i wanna go back to sydney.. i mean i do love my family n all n they've rly been v understanding n have been taking care of me while im sick these few days..it rly means a lot to me.. i cant imagine getting this sick all on my own!

Sometimes you get so filled up with love, the all-encompassing, love-the-whole-world type of love, just swelling up inside you. The sudden impulse to shower someone, something, everyone, and everything with all that love you have to give, but no one is there. It is during these moments where you feel most alone, with all that love and no one to share it with. It is during these times when you need a hug but no one’s there. And when you were hoping for a good friend to call, just to say hi or ask how you’re doing, the phone never rings. You then wonder, where’s all the love gone? Everyone’s milling about their daily activities, routines, almost mechanized. When will they have time to stop and think about their friends, to take some time off to relax and to love? When would be the right time? Would it be too late? I’ve got to puncture a little hole in my heart to let out some love, before it all encompasses me.

ohwell.. looking on the bright side, i shall try to make the most of what i have, must be happy!! shant b stupid n waste away my hols whining n complaining lyk a spoilt brat. once i recover n can go out, i'll make sure i have an awesome time =D

Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty

SCRIBBLINGS

an outlet for my creative juices to flow

MY FAVOURITE THINGS

Rise and shine my dear, my darling,
Sunshine through the window, birds are calling.
Awake from your sweet, sweet slumber,
Your day awaits, with many new wonders.

Cactus plants on your windowsill come to life,
Growing with vigour, they greet you with feist.
Fluffy white clouds sail across the sky,
Look up, look out, as love comes cruising by.

Wear a bright coloured top and your favourite scent,
Matched with a smile and your ribbon headband.
Carry with you some laughter in your heart,
For a little joy would bring you some luck.

The aroma of freshly brewed coffee wafts through the air,
Tempting, tantalising, drawing you close unaware.
A soy cappuccino in your left, an old book in your right,
Spend some time with yourself; blow some bubbles, fly a kite.

Sounds of the sea come together like a melody,
Notes played on the piano, a perfect rhapsody.
Dreamy weekend filled with my favourite things,
And peace fluttering by on white dove wings.

MOON
A pearl glowing luminous in the dark.
Beautiful. Tragically lonesome.
Tear drops glistening as i looked up.
Tragic. Lonesomely beautiful.

Disco ball spinning amidst parties of stars,
Glitzy, smoky, mysteriously enchanting.
Spotlight glaring down on an empty stage,
Naked, forsaken, enchantingly mysterious.

Outside my window, the night sky loomed.
Inky, somber, ominous, enigmatic.
DARK.
Dark against the pearl, my tears, disco ball, spotlight.

As i lust after the pearl so coveted,
I brush away tears undiscovered.
Drifting along under flashes of the disco ball,
I'm shrinking away from the spotlight where i used to belong.

My moon, so bright, perfectly round tonight.
My heart, heavy. Filled with thoughts of you inside.
Your heart, so light, perfectly sound this night.
Your moon, my moon. Our moon.
Your heart, is now her heart. Sweethearts.
My moon. I'll moon. Over you tonight.

my little tribute to the full moon tonight n the mysteries it brings. for what power the quiet night has, that tugs on heart strings, stirring emotions and letting loose inspiration.

MISSION P.C.

“Sssh!” The coast is clear! Sam and Joyce, heartbeats thumping with excitement, miniature drums beating furiously against their chests, hid behind the door of the room. Yet in the background of the heavy rhythm of the drums, there was the hint of laughter, a giggle perhaps, faintly chiming in the midst of all the commotion.

They were on an important mission. Top secret and highly classified. Stealth, speed and skill were the key factors. They had to initiate the machine- technical expertise was called for. Grasped tightly in their fists were the precious artefacts, which they could not afford to forget.

The matriarch had left the premises about 5 minutes ago and the girls had got into their positions without much haste. Silence filled the room, with the exception of that incessant drumbeat and the imperceptible flitter of glee. The curtains were left undrawn, blocking out much of the sunshine from the outside world. In the dim-lit room, the musky smell wafted by each time they inhaled. It smelt of old lacquered wood mixed with that distinctive smell of fresh paper, dappled with a pinch of a metallic scent- ink, they gathered. The machine sat solemnly at the other corner of the room, enticing, anticipating the girls’ next move. So calm and composed it seemed, patiently waiting for something to happen, like the calm before the storm.

The time for action had come. There was to be no delay. They had to get to the machine, activate it, fulfill their task and retreat, leaving no clues behind of their presence, all before the matriarch returned.

“On the count of 3! 1… 2… 3!” Joyce scurried over to the corner of the room, taking cover behind the machine as Sam followed behind, light-footed and nimble, after shutting the door behind her quietly and deftly turning the lock. Nobody had seen them. Good. For how dangerous and risky this was, with the door being slightly translucent. They had succeeded in securing the room. Now all they had to do was to complete their task and retreat.

The drumbeats faded slowly. Having done this before, Joyce took the lead, guiding and instructing Sam as she went along, activating the machine. With the push of a few specific buttons, a green light blinked on and the machine whirred to life. A cheeky grin smirked on their faces, still balled up in their fists were the artefacts. The giggle in the background began to grow louder, their hearts lighter.

Joyce gingerly lifted the lid of the machine, delicately placing the artefact from her hand onto the glistening panel, smoothening it out. She had to make sure the artefact was placed exactly within the specified margins or the plan would not work. After double-checking that everything was in place, she shut the lid with silent confidence. Sam stood close, observing carefully and learning the procedure for it would be her turn next. With a steady finality to it all, Joyce then pushed the big green button. The machine beeped and started to move, scanning the artefact across from one end to the other. Then, with a sudden burst of energy, it began to chug. Slowly at first, then picking up speed, its rhythm most peculiarly irregular yet hypnotic.

The giggle rose up like a bubble and broke as Joyce gave a little quip. It looks like her task was almost completed! Just as abruptly as it started, the chugging stopped and the machine gave out a loud beep, announcing that its job had been done. Breaking into a smile, lips curling upwards to reveal her teeth, Joyce reached out for the document that slid out onto the tray. As she laid her eyes on the result of her meticulous planning, rumbling laughter erupted from her little body as she held it up proudly with both hands, displaying it for Sam to see. Sam doubled over, clutching her stomach. She could hardly believe what she saw. It was like magic! Sam could not help but join in the throes of uncontrollable laughter and celebration of her sister’s success.

There, imprinted on the stark white sheet of paper, was the unmistakable, most humouring thing of all- the perfect print of her favourite snoopy panties!

Joyce and Sam laughed until tears began to form in their eyes as they repeated the process, Sam enthusiastically trying out her first shot at this.

Then came the screeching of the main gate and the grumble of the matriarch vehicle. She had returned. Each holding about 2-3 copies of warm and crisply printed paper in their hands, Sam and Joyce quickly snatched up their prized possessions and “certificates of achievements”, flipped the power switch to OFF, putting the machine back to sleep and dashed out of the study room. In a flash of motions, they quickly stashed the evidence in the secret compartment in their closet and rushed to the living room, plopped themselves on the sofa, turned on the television and acted like they had been watching Powerpuff Girls this whole time.

Still giggling intermittently at the outrageous adventure they just had, it was perfect timing as the main door clicked open and in stepped the matriarch. “Hi, Mom!” Both girls called in that coyly sweet voice of theirs, plastered on their faces were the “ innocent-puppy-eyed” expressions.

With a nod of approval, their mummy dearest carried her bag of groceries to the kitchen and Sam and Joyce let loose their infectious but final bout of laughter. With a high-five to seal the deal, there was nothing more exhilarating and satisfying than a task well planned and executed. What more was there to say, other than- MISSION PANTY-COPY ACCOMPLISHED!