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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty

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im still trying to think of what to do to fill up this space

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty

Thursday, December 31, 2009 ( 3:27 PM )

2010

itssss amazing how many things can happen in one yr.. how much things can change in just one yr.. how much my mindset has changed (for better and for worse)..

new yrs just a few hours away! ahh n normally i don't like resolutions cuz i'll just forget them in a while n also i'm gonna feel like.. GOSH! i have so much i can improve on! hahaha n i don't reallly want this yr to end yet cuz i haven't tied up all the loose ends for this yr!!

but i'll pen them down still.. it's time for me to be honest to myself too.. there are things that need changing/improving and i'll deal with them (:

ready for 2010?

1) Be more rational! Impulsive can be good sometimes but i think i've been too impulsive for my liking, its dangerous, so i should really think more b4 i act/say things

2) Exercise more n eat healthy n proper food n stop being a tim-tam-eating-machine!

3) Save money!

4) Be a happy happy person (shouldnt be hard) n don't be so anti-social ( i think this is nt rly gonna happen cuz im rly bad at making new friends)

5) Don't complain so much, enjoy vet school n try to stay awake in lectures n continue getting my distinctions

6) Keep in touch with syd n singapore friends and be nice to family (hehe!)

7) Learn how to cook n drive better (i totally SUCK at both)

8) Quit being a lazy bum! Its time to live it up and make myself useful cuz life's short! I should get my energy back!

my ahma's awesome bday (the one i just woke up in time to jump into the photo -.-")

met up w the cousins

this was a happy day w my dear friends <3

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 ( 1:45 AM )

i like meeting up w old friends n realise that our friendship can tahan those months while im away n when we don't really keep in touch lol yet we bother to meet up n its all still good

oooh im quite surprised at how fast i recover .. this wouldn't have been possible say, 1 yr ago. haha. its kinda like the joke of the year man.. LOL thought abt some stuff for the entire night last night cuz i was really disturbed n not feeling good at all..wahaha but its perfectly fine now that i've finally sorted out my thoughts =)

blading w kel n eepin was great ..been ages since i last bladed! luckily i didnt fall hahaha! n gg fast on my blades was goood stufff n managed to take my mind off troubling matters

aft talking w dickson the other day, kinda realised ive been very reckless n doing things w/o thinking for the last few months LOL n not thinking has been like an immunity, altho he says its the easy way out.. wahaha ohwell, taking things too seriously also no good ah! complicates matters. it just made me think for a bit.. but well, not thinking too much is good too, it protects u and its well, sometimes exciting n makes u feel more brave, daring and invincible. LOL m i even making sense?

ah well, 2009 is almost over.. TOO FAST.. n so many things have happened this yr.. eventful n exciting indeed!

Monday, December 28, 2009 ( 5:38 AM )

i feel very reckless

Saturday, December 26, 2009 ( 2:57 AM )

xmas is here n xmas is gone

4B gathering was fun! haha my favourite class n my close friends =) we had way tooo much foood though! hahaha the guys stayed over n we played guitar heroes! i rly sucked at that game (what's new, i suck at most games) wahaha but it was v fun n amusing! but my body clock is so screwed up now i can't slp at night n i wake up in the afternooons!

n then xmas eve was my grandma's bday.. i was so tired frm the slpover i KO the whole arvo n missed the bday song cut cake part lol! how ironic! but we still had a goood time! made an imprompto video w the cousins for her n then we all did the algorithim march thingy n erm hokey pokey!! HILARIOUS!!

xmas spent at zhen yi's house, LOTS OF FOOOD AGAIN!!!!! apple tart, log cake n more more more foood im so fulll now!

wkend is gonna be goood! meeting up w more friends yet again =)

Monday, December 21, 2009 ( 6:45 PM )

HAHAHA im so happy now cuz i just had the best dinner since i came back from sydney! Teeni(my last time maid) is back!! lol ya change maid again.. but i like her! she cooks awesome chilli spicy foood--- I LIKE! LOL todays dinnner all chillli sia.. my poor bro nothing to eat he go eat pasta..awww! tempeh, onions, chilli egg, claypot rice, papadums, indian veg curry.. YUMMY!!!!! n my mum bought me a coconut from supermarket hahahaaha quite hard but nvm, better than nothing! it satisfies my craving for the time being.. loL! im rly v satisfied! n happpy! LOL i really sound like a glutton huh!

and noww....some overdue pictures!

mambo for e first time ever

yong's bday

my dear usyd friends =)

VALERIE! <3

Fran's homemade chocolate icecream + my apple crumble = YUM!!!

back in sydney aww! i miss nanako!

( 5:08 AM )

went to yiming's commissioning parade on the 19th.. haha very cool indeed..very happy fr him XD they look smart in their uniforms!

tonight went over to fran's house for xmas gathering w the sydney ppl.. ahahaha i missed them! frans mum is an awesome awesome cook!! she prepared some veg stuff for me tooo! awwww! and fran's tiramisu- YUMYUMYUM! n we played taboo! hahaha im so terrible at that game.. i like pictionary better! but it was nice seeing everyone again! =)

after that, went to watch feng yun2 LOL.. aiyo..it was okie la.. quite bad... hahaha! avatar is awesome though!

im v surprised that there r so few movies! considering its school holidays, dec, xmas week! hmmmmm!

nxt wk will b a busy wk! i like! at least i will hav things to keep me busy with! hehe!

Monday, December 14, 2009 ( 9:24 PM )

YAY! my mum just bought our new coffee machine this arvo! =)

anyway, clubmed was FUN in the SUN.. not as exciting as i imagined but still had a goood time!! tanned, kayaked, sat in a sailboat which was really fun, did batik painting (i rly enjoyed this) n slacked n ate n exercised a lil bit.. haha played some badminton/tennis too!

CUTE! baby monkey!

i like this! little crabs dig little holes n form little balls of sand around it

loook what i found on the beach!!! i <3 stick insects, seriously!!

fun in the sun

sailboats- we took a ride into the sea on these...but not controlled by us of course!

lovely sand lovely sea

batik painting #1

masterpiece batik painting #2

Tuesday, December 8, 2009 ( 8:06 PM )

sooo lazy to update ever since i got back to singapore..but it has been pretty eventful so far

mambo was fun w the usyd people.. n then there was yong's bday party where he was gone by 8pm LOL n then meeting up w friends here n there =) been pretty good! feeling soo lazy though.. wahaha the last few days have been sleep eat sleep eat sleep eat laze around..

oh gosh.. my standchart was a disaster seriously.. LOL shall skip that part..

met up w val today n went shopping =) i got a pair of heels n a watch (claiming as my overdue bday present frm my parents) .. hehe.. later i have to pack up for tmr's trip, we're going to cherating, clubmed! family + some cousins n relatives.. it will b heaps fun! but im so lazy to pack hahaha its the after dinner syndrome n i jus feel like sleeping lols

what a lazy bum

ooh n we got our end of yr results back alrdy.. very pleased i am =)

Thursday, December 3, 2009 ( 5:23 AM )

things that made my sem 2 awesome

summer!!!

lecture notes are our canvases for creativity and an outlet for our artistic talents LOL!

these are my people <3

ADND

ADND after party @ V-bar

2 consecutive days of partying, ADND followed by HALLOWEEN!!

halloween party from vault hotel to midnight shift (a gay club) @ oxford street

taufik.vogue.usyd.au

we are co-dependent (Law, A 2009)

@ Hurricanes celebrating abby's n elisa's bdays in advance cum farewell-end-of-yr-dinner =)

abby's bday cake & card.. colourful hor!

our ATAS farm themed oreo cheesecake for abby's bday surprise XP

these are the people i miss the most

appple crumble in the well @ SUV =)

ps. Fran n Teresa gave abby n i an award for best apple crumble k! so its good stuff!

of course, plus camden week which was awesome but we ironically did not evn take one photo while we were there LOL

ah well... what can i say... MAMBO!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009 ( 3:19 AM )

finally back in singapore, after exams n all.. sem 2 was real quick and it was a good one!! we studied hard and played hard

the week after exams in Camden was the best week this sem! hehe abby nic n i rented an apartment at maclin lodge in campbelltown which was pretty affordable!! i think its actually cheaper n better than my own room in SUV! hahaha that one bedroom apartment had a proper kitchen, washing maching, dryer, iron, n it was spacious and compact at the same time wahaha n we make good housemates i think...

We went through stuff we did this year, Sheep, Pig, Cattle, Horse.. i liked sheep n cattle best! hahaha flipping sheep on conveyor belts, ultrasounding, shearing, ear tagging, drawing blood ( we all love drawing blood!! XD ) ,, drafting cattle i like!! we had to estimate the body condition score of cattle n their weights- that's what we were assessed on..

haha n driving around on our own, living in our own house, cooking our own food, washing our own clothes, it feels so liberating.. n abby n nic felt like my sister and brother.. i miss abby whos in penang now n i miss nic whos still in sydney now.. ahhhhh LOL it was a fun one this sem =)

shucks. wanted to upload photos but sths wrong w blogger

singapores not that bad, ugh..i slept 13 hours the night i returned home.. what a lazy bum hahaha!! finally got the chance to concuss n relax n catch up with sleep.. hmm i will start going out and doing things tmr! lol we r going bowling XD wahaha i shall ask my bro to teach me so no more chun-li style bowling hahaha!!

Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty

SCRIBBLINGS

an outlet for my creative juices to flow

MY FAVOURITE THINGS

Rise and shine my dear, my darling,
Sunshine through the window, birds are calling.
Awake from your sweet, sweet slumber,
Your day awaits, with many new wonders.

Cactus plants on your windowsill come to life,
Growing with vigour, they greet you with feist.
Fluffy white clouds sail across the sky,
Look up, look out, as love comes cruising by.

Wear a bright coloured top and your favourite scent,
Matched with a smile and your ribbon headband.
Carry with you some laughter in your heart,
For a little joy would bring you some luck.

The aroma of freshly brewed coffee wafts through the air,
Tempting, tantalising, drawing you close unaware.
A soy cappuccino in your left, an old book in your right,
Spend some time with yourself; blow some bubbles, fly a kite.

Sounds of the sea come together like a melody,
Notes played on the piano, a perfect rhapsody.
Dreamy weekend filled with my favourite things,
And peace fluttering by on white dove wings.

MOON
A pearl glowing luminous in the dark.
Beautiful. Tragically lonesome.
Tear drops glistening as i looked up.
Tragic. Lonesomely beautiful.

Disco ball spinning amidst parties of stars,
Glitzy, smoky, mysteriously enchanting.
Spotlight glaring down on an empty stage,
Naked, forsaken, enchantingly mysterious.

Outside my window, the night sky loomed.
Inky, somber, ominous, enigmatic.
DARK.
Dark against the pearl, my tears, disco ball, spotlight.

As i lust after the pearl so coveted,
I brush away tears undiscovered.
Drifting along under flashes of the disco ball,
I'm shrinking away from the spotlight where i used to belong.

My moon, so bright, perfectly round tonight.
My heart, heavy. Filled with thoughts of you inside.
Your heart, so light, perfectly sound this night.
Your moon, my moon. Our moon.
Your heart, is now her heart. Sweethearts.
My moon. I'll moon. Over you tonight.

my little tribute to the full moon tonight n the mysteries it brings. for what power the quiet night has, that tugs on heart strings, stirring emotions and letting loose inspiration.

MISSION P.C.

“Sssh!” The coast is clear! Sam and Joyce, heartbeats thumping with excitement, miniature drums beating furiously against their chests, hid behind the door of the room. Yet in the background of the heavy rhythm of the drums, there was the hint of laughter, a giggle perhaps, faintly chiming in the midst of all the commotion.

They were on an important mission. Top secret and highly classified. Stealth, speed and skill were the key factors. They had to initiate the machine- technical expertise was called for. Grasped tightly in their fists were the precious artefacts, which they could not afford to forget.

The matriarch had left the premises about 5 minutes ago and the girls had got into their positions without much haste. Silence filled the room, with the exception of that incessant drumbeat and the imperceptible flitter of glee. The curtains were left undrawn, blocking out much of the sunshine from the outside world. In the dim-lit room, the musky smell wafted by each time they inhaled. It smelt of old lacquered wood mixed with that distinctive smell of fresh paper, dappled with a pinch of a metallic scent- ink, they gathered. The machine sat solemnly at the other corner of the room, enticing, anticipating the girls’ next move. So calm and composed it seemed, patiently waiting for something to happen, like the calm before the storm.

The time for action had come. There was to be no delay. They had to get to the machine, activate it, fulfill their task and retreat, leaving no clues behind of their presence, all before the matriarch returned.

“On the count of 3! 1… 2… 3!” Joyce scurried over to the corner of the room, taking cover behind the machine as Sam followed behind, light-footed and nimble, after shutting the door behind her quietly and deftly turning the lock. Nobody had seen them. Good. For how dangerous and risky this was, with the door being slightly translucent. They had succeeded in securing the room. Now all they had to do was to complete their task and retreat.

The drumbeats faded slowly. Having done this before, Joyce took the lead, guiding and instructing Sam as she went along, activating the machine. With the push of a few specific buttons, a green light blinked on and the machine whirred to life. A cheeky grin smirked on their faces, still balled up in their fists were the artefacts. The giggle in the background began to grow louder, their hearts lighter.

Joyce gingerly lifted the lid of the machine, delicately placing the artefact from her hand onto the glistening panel, smoothening it out. She had to make sure the artefact was placed exactly within the specified margins or the plan would not work. After double-checking that everything was in place, she shut the lid with silent confidence. Sam stood close, observing carefully and learning the procedure for it would be her turn next. With a steady finality to it all, Joyce then pushed the big green button. The machine beeped and started to move, scanning the artefact across from one end to the other. Then, with a sudden burst of energy, it began to chug. Slowly at first, then picking up speed, its rhythm most peculiarly irregular yet hypnotic.

The giggle rose up like a bubble and broke as Joyce gave a little quip. It looks like her task was almost completed! Just as abruptly as it started, the chugging stopped and the machine gave out a loud beep, announcing that its job had been done. Breaking into a smile, lips curling upwards to reveal her teeth, Joyce reached out for the document that slid out onto the tray. As she laid her eyes on the result of her meticulous planning, rumbling laughter erupted from her little body as she held it up proudly with both hands, displaying it for Sam to see. Sam doubled over, clutching her stomach. She could hardly believe what she saw. It was like magic! Sam could not help but join in the throes of uncontrollable laughter and celebration of her sister’s success.

There, imprinted on the stark white sheet of paper, was the unmistakable, most humouring thing of all- the perfect print of her favourite snoopy panties!

Joyce and Sam laughed until tears began to form in their eyes as they repeated the process, Sam enthusiastically trying out her first shot at this.

Then came the screeching of the main gate and the grumble of the matriarch vehicle. She had returned. Each holding about 2-3 copies of warm and crisply printed paper in their hands, Sam and Joyce quickly snatched up their prized possessions and “certificates of achievements”, flipped the power switch to OFF, putting the machine back to sleep and dashed out of the study room. In a flash of motions, they quickly stashed the evidence in the secret compartment in their closet and rushed to the living room, plopped themselves on the sofa, turned on the television and acted like they had been watching Powerpuff Girls this whole time.

Still giggling intermittently at the outrageous adventure they just had, it was perfect timing as the main door clicked open and in stepped the matriarch. “Hi, Mom!” Both girls called in that coyly sweet voice of theirs, plastered on their faces were the “ innocent-puppy-eyed” expressions.

With a nod of approval, their mummy dearest carried her bag of groceries to the kitchen and Sam and Joyce let loose their infectious but final bout of laughter. With a high-five to seal the deal, there was nothing more exhilarating and satisfying than a task well planned and executed. What more was there to say, other than- MISSION PANTY-COPY ACCOMPLISHED!