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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
im still trying to think of what to do to fill up this space
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
♔empty♔
im still trying to think of what to do to fill up this space
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
it is amazing how the most wrong thing to do can feel like the most right thing to do
it is also amazing how much i like being in the grey.. i don't like black-and-white (:
sigh. i don't know whats gotten into me. i feel like i came back to singapore jus to create trouble. i should shut my mouth. blurting out random stuff that does not in any way benefit anyone is a disaster. and i keep getting myself into stupid little messes, without fail. and it doesn't feel goood and i feel guilty for not being able to consider the consequences clearly before acting the way i do. i tried thinking b4 acting and it can feel rational at that point of time, but after the mess is made, then i realise my 'rational' isn't that rational afterall.
and i wasn't ever like this before. i have no idea what happened. i've been putting myself deliberately outside my own comfort zone over the past few months i guess i have widened the zone somewhat, and that makes me become comfortable with doing/saying things i may not actually be comfortable with initially quite easily.
analogy: spoilt compass that keeps spinning..pendulum, tick tock tick tock. back n forth n back n forth.
i need to stop all this nonsense. i feel like i keep saying that lately. but yea, for all the messes made, i have only myself to blame cuz i'm the messy one.
i really need some direction in life and some brain rewiring. i can't keep running in little circles anymore.
then today we went to zhen yi's condo to play tennis n hav dinner.. LOL i SUCK at tennis seriously... zzz i cant even hit the balll!!! hahaha tell me la.. why why why m i so utterly hopeless with all ball games! sigh! everytime i play with them i provide them w entertainment u know! oooh i drove there and back tooo! of course, w my mum as my "gps".. i think im improving slightly.. at least i feel a tad more confident behind the wheel, tho my sense of direction is terrible.
Body Worlds Exhibition at Science centre was the bomb! It was in singapore in 2002 previously n i saw it then. However, this time i felt that i could appreciate it much much more! cuz we do our fair share of dissection pracs in school and learn anatomy and stuff like that, we can relate to it more, and i reallly admire the founder of this exhibition and the person who did all the dissection work is a GENIUS, seriously PRO, IMBA!

this was one of my favourite exhibits on display there. The muscle-man and the skeleton are actually from the SAME body!! its really amazing how they manages to separate the muscles and the skeleton so neatly. The muscle-body specimen wasn't really cut up at all! so i hav no idea how they managed to ease the entire skieletal body out in such completeness. PERFECT!!! reallly
There were of course more interesting and amazing pieces of work on display but this was one of the pictures i could find from their website cuz we aren't allowed to take any photos. My FAVOURITE of favourites was the GIRAFFE! there was this huge girafffe specimen nicely done! and a 2nd giraffe cut up into multiple transverse plates/planes frmo head to toe and displayed. its really something! i was reallly impressed!
and then we went to the science centre to walk around cuz the $21 ticket is inclusive of Body Worlds and Science Centre ( $20 body worlds, $1 sci centre) LOL and let me tell u... the science centre has CHANGED SO MUC since i last rmb it, which was prolly in pri sch when we had some sch excursion/course! Now its become very interactive and interesting, the science centre, a lot of things to see for just $1. The exhibits there are also quite new in fact! we didnt have time to explore everything but its alright! I will probably bring Abby over to see the exhibition and sci centre when she comes over.. i think most medical-related students can reallly reallly appreciate the Body Worlds exhibit and science centre will just be for fun.. hehe
ahh n then i was damn tired from it all cuz we spent the entire afternoon there!! hehe! went back home to stone n slack.. n was actually intending on sleeping EARLY for once!! n early was like 930pm?? LOL! BUT BUT BUT!!! Fj had to ask me to go chill w them at some gay club (omg i think im developing this thing for gay clubs.. but okie nvm, that is NOT the point).. n yeaaaaaa in the end, i jus hauled n dragged myself to go meet them! my eyes were seriously half closing! hehe! BUT i have to say, after a few drinks, it turned out to be a goood clubbing session LOL! was definitely worth it in the end (: love the spontaneity of it all!
n yes. finally at 4am on a friday night, i'm on the verge of falling asleep here!! so i'll be saying gooodnight now!! ive got a feeling, tonights gonna be a goood gooood night!! XD

that was the very first day of 2010 w my mates lol! the night where there were 2 mooons in the sky XP
ahhh somehow im getting v paranoid! i think my 8 lucky stars from last yr have dissapeared! =(
wheres all my goood luck gone? maybe im left with like 1 pathetic star now.. hahaha i think i shalll buy honey stars n eat them erm soooon... its dumb n theres no logic to it at all but ohwell! who cares! if it makes sense in my own little head ill be happy enough :)
first day at mount pleasant today after .. such a long time! im sooo rusty really haha.. everything that was so familiar before felt so unfamiliar! luckily they werent that busy n i could like watch n get myself back on the right track.. heh im gonna try to do cat cast on wed! as for today.. i intubated a dog =) n saw them treat this Aural Haematoma (<-- click) cat.. they had to sedate the cat then they cut the swollen ear open n drained all the blood that was accumulating n removed the clots..nth super exciting but yea, at least i feel like im doing sth concrete n learning now.. heh! even if its only gonna be 3 days a week!
finally getting a chance to meet up w xinni n shirong tmr! <3
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty
Friday, January 15, 2010 ( 3:57 AM )
it is amazing how the most wrong thing to do can feel like the most right thing to do
it is also amazing how much i like being in the grey.. i don't like black-and-white (:
Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ( 8:04 PM )
sigh. i don't know whats gotten into me. i feel like i came back to singapore jus to create trouble. i should shut my mouth. blurting out random stuff that does not in any way benefit anyone is a disaster. and i keep getting myself into stupid little messes, without fail. and it doesn't feel goood and i feel guilty for not being able to consider the consequences clearly before acting the way i do. i tried thinking b4 acting and it can feel rational at that point of time, but after the mess is made, then i realise my 'rational' isn't that rational afterall.
and i wasn't ever like this before. i have no idea what happened. i've been putting myself deliberately outside my own comfort zone over the past few months i guess i have widened the zone somewhat, and that makes me become comfortable with doing/saying things i may not actually be comfortable with initially quite easily.
analogy: spoilt compass that keeps spinning..pendulum, tick tock tick tock. back n forth n back n forth.
i need to stop all this nonsense. i feel like i keep saying that lately. but yea, for all the messes made, i have only myself to blame cuz i'm the messy one.
i really need some direction in life and some brain rewiring. i can't keep running in little circles anymore.
Sunday, January 10, 2010 ( 12:08 AM )
then today we went to zhen yi's condo to play tennis n hav dinner.. LOL i SUCK at tennis seriously... zzz i cant even hit the balll!!! hahaha tell me la.. why why why m i so utterly hopeless with all ball games! sigh! everytime i play with them i provide them w entertainment u know! oooh i drove there and back tooo! of course, w my mum as my "gps".. i think im improving slightly.. at least i feel a tad more confident behind the wheel, tho my sense of direction is terrible.
Saturday, January 9, 2010 ( 3:51 AM )
Body Worlds Exhibition at Science centre was the bomb! It was in singapore in 2002 previously n i saw it then. However, this time i felt that i could appreciate it much much more! cuz we do our fair share of dissection pracs in school and learn anatomy and stuff like that, we can relate to it more, and i reallly admire the founder of this exhibition and the person who did all the dissection work is a GENIUS, seriously PRO, IMBA!

this was one of my favourite exhibits on display there. The muscle-man and the skeleton are actually from the SAME body!! its really amazing how they manages to separate the muscles and the skeleton so neatly. The muscle-body specimen wasn't really cut up at all! so i hav no idea how they managed to ease the entire skieletal body out in such completeness. PERFECT!!! reallly
There were of course more interesting and amazing pieces of work on display but this was one of the pictures i could find from their website cuz we aren't allowed to take any photos. My FAVOURITE of favourites was the GIRAFFE! there was this huge girafffe specimen nicely done! and a 2nd giraffe cut up into multiple transverse plates/planes frmo head to toe and displayed. its really something! i was reallly impressed!
and then we went to the science centre to walk around cuz the $21 ticket is inclusive of Body Worlds and Science Centre ( $20 body worlds, $1 sci centre) LOL and let me tell u... the science centre has CHANGED SO MUC since i last rmb it, which was prolly in pri sch when we had some sch excursion/course! Now its become very interactive and interesting, the science centre, a lot of things to see for just $1. The exhibits there are also quite new in fact! we didnt have time to explore everything but its alright! I will probably bring Abby over to see the exhibition and sci centre when she comes over.. i think most medical-related students can reallly reallly appreciate the Body Worlds exhibit and science centre will just be for fun.. hehe
ahh n then i was damn tired from it all cuz we spent the entire afternoon there!! hehe! went back home to stone n slack.. n was actually intending on sleeping EARLY for once!! n early was like 930pm?? LOL! BUT BUT BUT!!! Fj had to ask me to go chill w them at some gay club (omg i think im developing this thing for gay clubs.. but okie nvm, that is NOT the point).. n yeaaaaaa in the end, i jus hauled n dragged myself to go meet them! my eyes were seriously half closing! hehe! BUT i have to say, after a few drinks, it turned out to be a goood clubbing session LOL! was definitely worth it in the end (: love the spontaneity of it all!
n yes. finally at 4am on a friday night, i'm on the verge of falling asleep here!! so i'll be saying gooodnight now!! ive got a feeling, tonights gonna be a goood gooood night!! XD
Tuesday, January 5, 2010 ( 1:19 AM )

that was the very first day of 2010 w my mates lol! the night where there were 2 mooons in the sky XP
ahhh somehow im getting v paranoid! i think my 8 lucky stars from last yr have dissapeared! =(
wheres all my goood luck gone? maybe im left with like 1 pathetic star now.. hahaha i think i shalll buy honey stars n eat them erm soooon... its dumb n theres no logic to it at all but ohwell! who cares! if it makes sense in my own little head ill be happy enough :)
first day at mount pleasant today after .. such a long time! im sooo rusty really haha.. everything that was so familiar before felt so unfamiliar! luckily they werent that busy n i could like watch n get myself back on the right track.. heh im gonna try to do cat cast on wed! as for today.. i intubated a dog =) n saw them treat this Aural Haematoma (<-- click) cat.. they had to sedate the cat then they cut the swollen ear open n drained all the blood that was accumulating n removed the clots..nth super exciting but yea, at least i feel like im doing sth concrete n learning now.. heh! even if its only gonna be 3 days a week!
finally getting a chance to meet up w xinni n shirong tmr! <3
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MY FAVOURITE THINGS
Rise and shine my dear, my darling,
Sunshine through the window, birds are calling.
Awake from your sweet, sweet slumber,
Your day awaits, with many new wonders.
Cactus plants on your windowsill come to life,
Growing with vigour, they greet you with feist.
Fluffy white clouds sail across the sky,
Look up, look out, as love comes cruising by.
Wear a bright coloured top and your favourite scent,
Matched with a smile and your ribbon headband.
Carry with you some laughter in your heart,
For a little joy would bring you some luck.
The aroma of freshly brewed coffee wafts through the air,
Tempting, tantalising, drawing you close unaware.
A soy cappuccino in your left, an old book in your right,
Spend some time with yourself; blow some bubbles, fly a kite.
Sounds of the sea come together like a melody,
Notes played on the piano, a perfect rhapsody.
Dreamy weekend filled with my favourite things,
And peace fluttering by on white dove wings.
Rise and shine my dear, my darling,
Sunshine through the window, birds are calling.
Awake from your sweet, sweet slumber,
Your day awaits, with many new wonders.
Cactus plants on your windowsill come to life,
Growing with vigour, they greet you with feist.
Fluffy white clouds sail across the sky,
Look up, look out, as love comes cruising by.
Wear a bright coloured top and your favourite scent,
Matched with a smile and your ribbon headband.
Carry with you some laughter in your heart,
For a little joy would bring you some luck.
The aroma of freshly brewed coffee wafts through the air,
Tempting, tantalising, drawing you close unaware.
A soy cappuccino in your left, an old book in your right,
Spend some time with yourself; blow some bubbles, fly a kite.
Sounds of the sea come together like a melody,
Notes played on the piano, a perfect rhapsody.
Dreamy weekend filled with my favourite things,
And peace fluttering by on white dove wings.
MOON
A pearl glowing luminous in the dark.
Beautiful. Tragically lonesome.
Tear drops glistening as i looked up.
Tragic. Lonesomely beautiful.
Disco ball spinning amidst parties of stars,
Glitzy, smoky, mysteriously enchanting.
Spotlight glaring down on an empty stage,
Naked, forsaken, enchantingly mysterious.
Outside my window, the night sky loomed.
Inky, somber, ominous, enigmatic.
DARK.
Dark against the pearl, my tears, disco ball, spotlight.
As i lust after the pearl so coveted,
I brush away tears undiscovered.
Drifting along under flashes of the disco ball,
I'm shrinking away from the spotlight where i used to belong.
My moon, so bright, perfectly round tonight.
My heart, heavy. Filled with thoughts of you inside.
Your heart, so light, perfectly sound this night.
Your moon, my moon. Our moon.
Your heart, is now her heart. Sweethearts.
My moon. I'll moon. Over you tonight.
my little tribute to the full moon tonight n the mysteries it brings. for what power the quiet night has, that tugs on heart strings, stirring emotions and letting loose inspiration.
MISSION P.C.
“Sssh!” The coast is clear! Sam and Joyce, heartbeats thumping with excitement, miniature drums beating furiously against their chests, hid behind the door of the room. Yet in the background of the heavy rhythm of the drums, there was the hint of laughter, a giggle perhaps, faintly chiming in the midst of all the commotion.
They were on an important mission. Top secret and highly classified. Stealth, speed and skill were the key factors. They had to initiate the machine- technical expertise was called for. Grasped tightly in their fists were the precious artefacts, which they could not afford to forget.
The matriarch had left the premises about 5 minutes ago and the girls had got into their positions without much haste. Silence filled the room, with the exception of that incessant drumbeat and the imperceptible flitter of glee. The curtains were left undrawn, blocking out much of the sunshine from the outside world. In the dim-lit room, the musky smell wafted by each time they inhaled. It smelt of old lacquered wood mixed with that distinctive smell of fresh paper, dappled with a pinch of a metallic scent- ink, they gathered. The machine sat solemnly at the other corner of the room, enticing, anticipating the girls’ next move. So calm and composed it seemed, patiently waiting for something to happen, like the calm before the storm.
The time for action had come. There was to be no delay. They had to get to the machine, activate it, fulfill their task and retreat, leaving no clues behind of their presence, all before the matriarch returned.
“On the count of 3! 1… 2… 3!” Joyce scurried over to the corner of the room, taking cover behind the machine as Sam followed behind, light-footed and nimble, after shutting the door behind her quietly and deftly turning the lock. Nobody had seen them. Good. For how dangerous and risky this was, with the door being slightly translucent. They had succeeded in securing the room. Now all they had to do was to complete their task and retreat.
The drumbeats faded slowly. Having done this before, Joyce took the lead, guiding and instructing Sam as she went along, activating the machine. With the push of a few specific buttons, a green light blinked on and the machine whirred to life. A cheeky grin smirked on their faces, still balled up in their fists were the artefacts. The giggle in the background began to grow louder, their hearts lighter.
Joyce gingerly lifted the lid of the machine, delicately placing the artefact from her hand onto the glistening panel, smoothening it out. She had to make sure the artefact was placed exactly within the specified margins or the plan would not work. After double-checking that everything was in place, she shut the lid with silent confidence. Sam stood close, observing carefully and learning the procedure for it would be her turn next. With a steady finality to it all, Joyce then pushed the big green button. The machine beeped and started to move, scanning the artefact across from one end to the other. Then, with a sudden burst of energy, it began to chug. Slowly at first, then picking up speed, its rhythm most peculiarly irregular yet hypnotic.
The giggle rose up like a bubble and broke as Joyce gave a little quip. It looks like her task was almost completed! Just as abruptly as it started, the chugging stopped and the machine gave out a loud beep, announcing that its job had been done. Breaking into a smile, lips curling upwards to reveal her teeth, Joyce reached out for the document that slid out onto the tray. As she laid her eyes on the result of her meticulous planning, rumbling laughter erupted from her little body as she held it up proudly with both hands, displaying it for Sam to see. Sam doubled over, clutching her stomach. She could hardly believe what she saw. It was like magic! Sam could not help but join in the throes of uncontrollable laughter and celebration of her sister’s success.
There, imprinted on the stark white sheet of paper, was the unmistakable, most humouring thing of all- the perfect print of her favourite snoopy panties!
Joyce and Sam laughed until tears began to form in their eyes as they repeated the process, Sam enthusiastically trying out her first shot at this.
Then came the screeching of the main gate and the grumble of the matriarch vehicle. She had returned. Each holding about 2-3 copies of warm and crisply printed paper in their hands, Sam and Joyce quickly snatched up their prized possessions and “certificates of achievements”, flipped the power switch to OFF, putting the machine back to sleep and dashed out of the study room. In a flash of motions, they quickly stashed the evidence in the secret compartment in their closet and rushed to the living room, plopped themselves on the sofa, turned on the television and acted like they had been watching Powerpuff Girls this whole time.
Still giggling intermittently at the outrageous adventure they just had, it was perfect timing as the main door clicked open and in stepped the matriarch. “Hi, Mom!” Both girls called in that coyly sweet voice of theirs, plastered on their faces were the “ innocent-puppy-eyed” expressions.
With a nod of approval, their mummy dearest carried her bag of groceries to the kitchen and Sam and Joyce let loose their infectious but final bout of laughter. With a high-five to seal the deal, there was nothing more exhilarating and satisfying than a task well planned and executed. What more was there to say, other than- MISSION PANTY-COPY ACCOMPLISHED!
A pearl glowing luminous in the dark.
Beautiful. Tragically lonesome.
Tear drops glistening as i looked up.
Tragic. Lonesomely beautiful.
Disco ball spinning amidst parties of stars,
Glitzy, smoky, mysteriously enchanting.
Spotlight glaring down on an empty stage,
Naked, forsaken, enchantingly mysterious.
Outside my window, the night sky loomed.
Inky, somber, ominous, enigmatic.
DARK.
Dark against the pearl, my tears, disco ball, spotlight.
As i lust after the pearl so coveted,
I brush away tears undiscovered.
Drifting along under flashes of the disco ball,
I'm shrinking away from the spotlight where i used to belong.
My moon, so bright, perfectly round tonight.
My heart, heavy. Filled with thoughts of you inside.
Your heart, so light, perfectly sound this night.
Your moon, my moon. Our moon.
Your heart, is now her heart. Sweethearts.
My moon. I'll moon. Over you tonight.
my little tribute to the full moon tonight n the mysteries it brings. for what power the quiet night has, that tugs on heart strings, stirring emotions and letting loose inspiration.
MISSION P.C.
“Sssh!” The coast is clear! Sam and Joyce, heartbeats thumping with excitement, miniature drums beating furiously against their chests, hid behind the door of the room. Yet in the background of the heavy rhythm of the drums, there was the hint of laughter, a giggle perhaps, faintly chiming in the midst of all the commotion.
They were on an important mission. Top secret and highly classified. Stealth, speed and skill were the key factors. They had to initiate the machine- technical expertise was called for. Grasped tightly in their fists were the precious artefacts, which they could not afford to forget.
The matriarch had left the premises about 5 minutes ago and the girls had got into their positions without much haste. Silence filled the room, with the exception of that incessant drumbeat and the imperceptible flitter of glee. The curtains were left undrawn, blocking out much of the sunshine from the outside world. In the dim-lit room, the musky smell wafted by each time they inhaled. It smelt of old lacquered wood mixed with that distinctive smell of fresh paper, dappled with a pinch of a metallic scent- ink, they gathered. The machine sat solemnly at the other corner of the room, enticing, anticipating the girls’ next move. So calm and composed it seemed, patiently waiting for something to happen, like the calm before the storm.
The time for action had come. There was to be no delay. They had to get to the machine, activate it, fulfill their task and retreat, leaving no clues behind of their presence, all before the matriarch returned.
“On the count of 3! 1… 2… 3!” Joyce scurried over to the corner of the room, taking cover behind the machine as Sam followed behind, light-footed and nimble, after shutting the door behind her quietly and deftly turning the lock. Nobody had seen them. Good. For how dangerous and risky this was, with the door being slightly translucent. They had succeeded in securing the room. Now all they had to do was to complete their task and retreat.
The drumbeats faded slowly. Having done this before, Joyce took the lead, guiding and instructing Sam as she went along, activating the machine. With the push of a few specific buttons, a green light blinked on and the machine whirred to life. A cheeky grin smirked on their faces, still balled up in their fists were the artefacts. The giggle in the background began to grow louder, their hearts lighter.
Joyce gingerly lifted the lid of the machine, delicately placing the artefact from her hand onto the glistening panel, smoothening it out. She had to make sure the artefact was placed exactly within the specified margins or the plan would not work. After double-checking that everything was in place, she shut the lid with silent confidence. Sam stood close, observing carefully and learning the procedure for it would be her turn next. With a steady finality to it all, Joyce then pushed the big green button. The machine beeped and started to move, scanning the artefact across from one end to the other. Then, with a sudden burst of energy, it began to chug. Slowly at first, then picking up speed, its rhythm most peculiarly irregular yet hypnotic.
The giggle rose up like a bubble and broke as Joyce gave a little quip. It looks like her task was almost completed! Just as abruptly as it started, the chugging stopped and the machine gave out a loud beep, announcing that its job had been done. Breaking into a smile, lips curling upwards to reveal her teeth, Joyce reached out for the document that slid out onto the tray. As she laid her eyes on the result of her meticulous planning, rumbling laughter erupted from her little body as she held it up proudly with both hands, displaying it for Sam to see. Sam doubled over, clutching her stomach. She could hardly believe what she saw. It was like magic! Sam could not help but join in the throes of uncontrollable laughter and celebration of her sister’s success.
There, imprinted on the stark white sheet of paper, was the unmistakable, most humouring thing of all- the perfect print of her favourite snoopy panties!
Joyce and Sam laughed until tears began to form in their eyes as they repeated the process, Sam enthusiastically trying out her first shot at this.
Then came the screeching of the main gate and the grumble of the matriarch vehicle. She had returned. Each holding about 2-3 copies of warm and crisply printed paper in their hands, Sam and Joyce quickly snatched up their prized possessions and “certificates of achievements”, flipped the power switch to OFF, putting the machine back to sleep and dashed out of the study room. In a flash of motions, they quickly stashed the evidence in the secret compartment in their closet and rushed to the living room, plopped themselves on the sofa, turned on the television and acted like they had been watching Powerpuff Girls this whole time.
Still giggling intermittently at the outrageous adventure they just had, it was perfect timing as the main door clicked open and in stepped the matriarch. “Hi, Mom!” Both girls called in that coyly sweet voice of theirs, plastered on their faces were the “ innocent-puppy-eyed” expressions.
With a nod of approval, their mummy dearest carried her bag of groceries to the kitchen and Sam and Joyce let loose their infectious but final bout of laughter. With a high-five to seal the deal, there was nothing more exhilarating and satisfying than a task well planned and executed. What more was there to say, other than- MISSION PANTY-COPY ACCOMPLISHED!